20130918-123705.jpgAt some point you realize that there is no point fighting the inevitable, and that the only sensible option is just to give up. I reached that point last month.

If you have been following my blog, you know of my struggle to save my infected chemo port. Twice I thought I had the battle won, but always the infection returned. I had several severe septic reactions while accessing my port leading up to TACE #4, and that is when I had made the decision to finally give up the struggle and have the port taken out.

The mess with the last Chemoembolization just made this all the more urgent and the port was removed at the Freudenstadt hospital. I really missed the port. My veins were not in the best shape and it usually took multiple attempts to hit one with a cannula. Soon I learned which nurses were the most skilled at this and I started to seek these out. Ok, its only needles, but I have this psychological phobia where these are concerned. Though I must admit, I managed to sit through 3 failed attempts which 3 months ago would not have been possible without fainting or throwing up. Progress at last?

Without a port some of the IV’s like ALA or Vit C are quite harsh on the veins and it was actually quite painful as these went in.

I got a new port a week later and once it healed I was back in business. After three weeks of cannulas it was quite a relief. Now just to make sure I don’t get another infection. I have become quite anal about following strict aseptic procedures while accessing my new port and use extra antiseptics. I think the nurses will not like me very much, as no one likes to be told how to do their job, but tough. I am not going through this again if I can help it.

About Ren

I have been diagnosed with stage 4, metastatic colorectal cancer in October 2012, 3 days after my 44th birthday. There is no cure, but I am determined to go down the road less travelled to find one. I have setup this blog to document my journey and hopefully help others in the process. My view is that if there is a cure, it does not lie with traditional chemo, but with the immune system. Time will tell.
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